About me:
-Naive and gullible are two words i'm mostly described
-Sarcasm is my strong point
-Randomness is what i like
-Immature is wat i am :)
-Single has always been my status
-Unluckiness is wat always struck me
-ORANGE is wat i luv
-Music is what cheer me up :)
-Ppl who doesn't kno how to hv fun is who i avoid
-Hyperactive is how i always act :)
Toktok is SO dead.. Seriously, i hate how i'm being too helpless.. that's just downright PATHETIC. Whenever i see him, i can't fight the urge to BEAT THE SHIT OUT OF THT GUY. Seriously, i've never been so mad in my life, the first time i know wat he did to my fs, i was totally SHAKING with fury.. I SWEARRRR... If only i have the guts, i'd totally choke him to death.. I'll AVENGE SEVENFOLD!!! well, i've got the guts, but i have no idea wat's preventing me from totally crushing him until he bows down to me for forgiveness( yeah, as if tht gonna happen) .. it's not that i'm cowering.. well, i THINK i'm not cowering.. i'm not scared at all of that bastard.. he looks weak.. and i think i'm stronger than that guy.. totally.. i've totally got used to my brother beating me up, i'll cope against him.. BUT SERIOUSLY WAT THE HELL IS PREVENTING ME TO TOTALLY BALLED MY FIST AND CRUSHED HIS BONES AND BREAK HIS JAWS AND TWIRLED HIS HAND AND SLAM HIM DOWN ON A STONE-HARD FLOOR AND BLEED!!! <-- i sound emo.. but seriously... i need to beat him.. TO THE EXTREME!!!! .. he deserved all of that.... TRULY... I need revengeee....
The pic can't get any messier than this >.< .. hehe.. Anyways... i'm TOTALLY in love with this song of 'Mutiara'.. cus it's just SO deeeeeeep >.< and a great pic of me and ASA.. hehe :D my pic couldn't get messier than that in Blingee ( i think it could bee.. XD).. .. man.. i'm getting obsessed with him more and more >.< .. needs to get over with obsession.. but.. seriously.. i don't think that my feelings towards asa is any of those fangirls.. I couldn't help being supeer jealous when Tari mentioned that ASA likes tiara (or was it Mutia.. GAWD, short term memoryy these days >.<) in the show 'Mutiara'.. NEEDS TO GET OVER ADE SURYA AKBAR SOON!!! >.< .. it's just some wild fantasy.. there's NO way we could b couples.. naah.. not in a million yearrs.. am just not good enough for him =( ..but a girl couldn't help but dream, could they? Anyways.. i'd like to try translating the theme song of 'Mutiara' : Cinta Dalam Hati by Ungu.. the song is just SO deep and sad and touching.. and really potrays an unrequited love situation.. and how u feel at those circumstances.. at least.. that's how I feel when i like someone.. i won't translate it EXACTLY.. but at least.. something like it.. =) Cinta Dalam Hati - Ungu Lyric and Translation
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Translation:
May be this is the fate i've to walk on, Loving without being returned, I don't care as long as you're happy in your life in your life
I have long hidden that feeling, waiting for your heart to greet me, That doesn't matter, loving you is already elation for me
I want you to know me here waiting for you even if it takes until the end of time and let me embrace you this once to say goodbye forever and let this feelings elated for a moment
That's it though.. hehe :D.. hope you like it.. :)
MAAAAN!! this ep is the greatest among all the Eyeshield21's eps.. it's so funnyyy.. guaranteed to make u laughh.. it's so hillariouss.. <33 the part where Hiruma was wearing a rabbit suit.. Bwahahahahahahahahaha.. i was laughing lk hell.. and the part wen they tried to catch Hirumaaa and ended up that he was in a tank.. YA-HA!!! and Hiruma's sinister laugh.. Can i love this ep even moreee... "it's not against the rules, rightt??"**holds a gun** Bwahahaha.. and with CEreberos in front of the head.. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA... am starting to love the pair HirumaxMamori.. adorableee... hehe.. they seem to have this 'mutual understanding'.. Love doesn't need chemistry does it? ((remembers how me and ila argues about whether or not love needs chemistry)).... i <33 it how Hiruma uses his gun to push ppl around... and his handbook.. Bwahahahahahahahaha.. he can get n e thing with that book.. lolss..threats.. man, i'm loving Hiruma more and moreeeeee.... weiiiiiiiiii... lols lols lols lols.. and how the commentators somehow end up in the field day.. Ngeehehehehehehehehe.... N e waysss.. i got this pic when Hiruma was young.. his hair is black tho >.< i guess he dyed them wen he gets oldeeer.. it's soo cuteeee <3.. Kuritaa is shooo adorableee tooo :33.. ((he wears three watches on his wrist))<-- my fav kind of style ;) .. hehe :D Weei... in ep 121, me luv the part where hiruma stood in front of Mamoriiii :3:3:3.. hehe.. and i just found out that in the Dinosaur game Hiruma break an arm and Sena was forced being the quarterback T.T !! heheeee... well.. here's the pic:
YA-HA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! <33 Hiruma's evilnesssss... <33 his maniacal,evil laugh.. Mwahahahahahahaha.. <33 his geniusnessss... and his teeeeth..and of course his gun... "New slave confirmed".. THis anime show is TRULY amaziiing...... gets me all pumped up & obsessed.. I can't watch 10 eps or less for a daaay.. it just HAssss to be moree than that.. Now i'm in ep 88 >.<!! Theey won third placeee just by a whisker against the Bando wtvr n goo to the CHristmaas Bowl!!!! YAY-oooo and they're advancing to thee Kanto tournameeent.. GREATOOOOOOO.. just wen i thought they'd lose everything after their loss against thee Wild Gunmaans =D..... Weeeeeeeee and Hiruma's putting them up to more training with his own Hiruma's waaay.((He'd carry a gun and pushes them around.. Bwahahahahahahah)).. n e ways... i just <33 tht opening .. i couldn't find the lyricc but this is wat i get from the opening tho its only small fraction of that: Dang Dang Sanzan sora wo nottote Gan gan hoshi ni nokkatte Kaidankette agette kou! Dame nara dameda sorede honmou? Nanka MAI PE-SU sou ne MAI NE-MU MAJI kattarii toki ni kattari Mada shimijimi sunna IKIIKI KIBIKIBI ike misero iji Naitemo warattemo Toki ha tomatte kunnai daro Nakushite te ni irete Naa motomoto ZERO daze icchou doudai? Dandan harewataru Asu ga aru akirame nante nai ze Dondon susume ba ii Utaeba ii sunao ni egao de Dandan ashioto ga Aoi sora hibike kaze ni nore Dondon nobareba ii Kono semai sekai wo tobidase Ah! Ah! Yume ni mukatte Ah! Ah! Koe Dashi atte Ah! Ah! Kurushikanai ze! NANBA-WAN mezashi hashitte
Translation: Full out! Take a ride on the sky Bam bam! Grab onto the stars Kick your way up the stairs! Hopeless is hopeless -- satisfied with that? Something like, "my pace," yeah that's, "my name" When you're seriously tired, that's when you win Don't get all serious again, get excited! Going all out, to show them your spirit! When you cry, or when you laugh Time isn't gonna stop for you, you know? When you lose it, when you get it Hey, you start off at zero, so how 'bout something? Slowly, the sky clears up There's a tomorrow, so what's this, "giving up," stuff? Quickly getting there would be good Singing would be good, with a meek smile Slowly, the sound of footsteps Echo to the blue sky and ride the wind Quickly climing would be good Jumping out from this crowded world Ah! Ah! Facing your dreams Ah! Ah! Raise your voice with us Ah! Ah! You'd better bring it! Aim for, "number one," and run
I really like poking -pokes- -pokes- -pokes-.. I've realised that my overall posts in this blog haven't got the slightest bit about my life, my emotions, my pov and whatsoever that's related to the mental impacts within me from my life. Well, frankly, i've thought about writing hundreds thousands millions trillions zillions times, but i've got this attentivity maintenance disability, whenever i feel like writing, i can't just help abandoning the site cause over all the things racing in my mind, I just couldn't bother to state it down on a coherent writing format. Literacy/Writing has always inspire me and i might find it of a more fascinating thing than some ordinary people might think and yet an old hag is now crushing it all just as if it is some measely, insignificant, unlikely fantasy beyond of all credibility. I'll kill that womaaan.. Bwahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha.. I bet everyone knows who's the evil old hag <33 Hiruma's evilness.. In one of the assemblies the principal had mentioned "Everyone is equal, a state of inferiority is when ones think of it themselves" his 'wise' words is really astounding and it brings consolation to sunken heart, low-spirited people. "Those who thinks highly of themselves, acclaiming superiority would be the loser at the end". It's a wonder that his speeches in certain assemblies sometimes, somehow, somewhat connected to what i'm experiencing. Could this be more than just mere coincidence? Who knows?(answer: Allah SWT knows.. hehe =D).but could it be:"Nothing is but mere coincidence, everything happens for a reason" I've been thinking this through.. I couldn't help but think this is stupid:"Out of the people you don't understand most is yourself" But now i guess i could sorta make that out.. hehe XD.. In everyone's life, it's a MUST-BE that they experienced days that are incredibly a burden for them. I had tons of that and somehow i let it our from partly trantrums(slamming doors, throwing books/pillows, getting into a fight etc.), just cry it all out or see my friends. My friends are always the one who cheer me up to the very end regardless of their recognisation in their important role of helping me out in a tough situation. Whenever i see them, i just can't help to smile however sick/sad i am.. i might just cry a bit, then i'll be all cheery again. Well, at least that's what i think. I could might just be a two-face lad who wear a mask in front of my friends. A girl that whevener is exposed to public, go on full-defences and changes to her alter ego. And went from totally me to totally me not.. haha XD it's like i'm just taking shelter in this container and depends on it... a covering from my true self.
Where's my heart going????
My heart is no longer as it used to be. I want to be the me before. It's been dominated by incoming evil thoughts.. I'm starting to imply bad things out of people T.T I'm starting to be more and more selfish...
I'm not as innocent as people think i am(Mayb they ALREADY don't think i'm innocent.. Bwahahahahahahaha) anyways, I'm just surpressing this feelings.. it's not a good feeling.. =( .. i want it to go away... it's really bad.. these thoughts of mine .. I'm becoming such a bad person.. I want to be good, i don't want to have these feelings.... I don't want to live over-shadowed by people.. I just want to live to my full capacity, giving it my all, ignore all the facts around me, just be me and satisfied the me as me :) This is what they called "the journey of life".. A journey where you'll find your true selves, make memories :D, experience despair, joy and all sorts of things. To always get up no matter how hard you fall, keep giving life your all :).. My favourite poem..
There you go: an extra long entry.. well not that long anyways.. but that's the entry i get serious about.. though honestly i wasn't at all serious while i was writing it.. but it's wat's on my head.. being serious like this sure seems funnyyy.. heheee.. :D
Needs to wait a week more until holidays. 3 more English lessons 2 more physics 2 more chemistry 2 more biology 2 more BM (Mrs Azleen's coming back T.T. NO FUN) 2 more ICT 1 more islamiyat 2 more french 2 more accounting 1 more PE 3 more maths 2 more AO 2 BORIIIING GEOGRAPHYYY 3 more TESTSSSS... >.<.. NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!
dat's a whole lot of stuffs to cope in a week's time T.T .. Especially the '3 english classes' and the '3 tests'
Ya Allah, please help me..
School Life without love is a lotfull of dullness.. cus dere's nothing to be happy about going to skwl.. cus.. every day's life is PLAIN when u dun love n e 1. instead u groaaaaaaan cus of tests n lessons.. teachers just won't quit giving us test.. they don't even take account on the limited capability of our brain..
PLEASEEEE.. MAKE THE HOLIDAY COME FAST.. nian doens't want to wait n e longeeeer... nian can't wait until i finish all those tests.. My brain can't take n e more pressure..
"there's more than meets the eyes, i see the soul that is inside"
N + A = <3
I just <3 this pic that Tari sent me.. :3.. where i stood behind n next to u-kno-who. I'd like to post it up here. But somehow, just in case, tho dere's one in a million chance, someone dat knows 'him' would stumble across this blog. Well, im just foreboding the expected. It struck me there.. the first time i saw the pic.. It was.. WOW :3..
I'm being more sensitive than ever these days.. Am so stressed too cus of tests.. n my brain, somehow, doesn't work as good as it was before.. it can onli comprehend small stuffs.. complex stuffs, it just wouldn't bother to process .. *Phew* i thought i mite hv detention fot passing my AO hw late.. Turns out the Maths teacher is kind after all :-)
Life is TOUGHER n TOUGHER.. i'm telling u.. i wish i culd do lotsa stuffs to make it better, but somehow, i'm maintaining dignity. I kno, how selfish i am :-( Well, i think , there's no one in the world that ain't selfish. Well yeaah.. n my so-called {censored} couldn't seem to just accept any praise given to me.. Selfish MUCH?? at least try to change... di hati kecilku ku benci kamu. haha.. This is wat u call ppl who can't accept defeat.. as in.. ppl who doesn't quit.. n also ppl who's just couldn't help to lose face.. one tough person i tell u.. but wat culd i do but just pretend not to care and just pray one day the person deserves what {censored} get..
Hopes the best for 'him' in his exams.. Do Your Best!!!.. Ganbatteeee :-D
I'm falling in love with you, which will come to pass? Will the feeling do nothing but swell, or will you notice it Even though i never say anything? Just like snow, but quietly it continues to pile up If it goes on like this i don't ever want to know What it was like to fall in love with Someone. How long will i keep thinking of you? Now, A burning candle can't melt my shaking heart anymore I miss you everytime i think of you I love you; my chest fills up I want to cry out to the winter sky I want to see you now ~Changin' my life - Eternal Snow
You been part of me since that first day. You're in my thoughts and my dreams You are in every breath I take and every single move I make.
I see you when I close my eyes. The way you look and how you move. I know it is my love that I must prove. Our joyful memories I will replay And how much I love you in every way.
I know when you been in the room By the fragrance of your presence. I feel that time is of the essence. Passion coursing through my veins. Looking forward to the time that still remains.
You're in my thought in every way In my mind, in the words I say In my soul, in how I pray,
I am thankful for the day we met I am sure that my love for you I will never regret.. You are the spirit of my love and the passion that rains from above.
In my emotions that been freed In the devotions to you I feed.
No, this is not the girl I was More the girl that I want to be To be there for you always to see.
it started to burst my heart Afraid to say I love you, until you said you loved me first. For fear of your feelings for me just burst.
Your name is etched upon my heart. That is something I could not disguise.
Mid-Term Report Card:- What more can i say beside that everything in it is just a bunch of crap.. as in.. my grades...i really need to work harder >.<
YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY.. holidaisss for 5 long daiss.. 5 dais ain't long i kno.. but it's enuff to make me happyy... Nian's on her waaay to saveee the daiiiiiiiii... **being totally random** XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO nian mau ketemuu sama de surya akbar.. -nods- Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz... it's 12:09 WHEN WILL NARUTO MANGA BE RELEASEEED??? NARUTO RAWWWWKSSSSSSS BLEAAAAACH RAWWWWWWWKKKSSSS nothingbutnothing~ y isn't int.mediabiz.tv working? GW MAU NONTON TRANST TV OIIIIIIIII
